feb




if they don't like me because of what i did to ernie, i agree.
all good.
i suffered way more than they did.






they think they know every clothes i own.
they never mention how they feel.

it's not ME the problem.
nor them.
it's how i interpret them that's the problem.



oh yeah, and one of them is afraid of toronto.
they booked a "safe" hotel.
lol.
(facepalm)


jan 31









dear god.
thank you this building is not sold.


jan. 30





can i please sleep.


jan. 29





it's not to blame them, when they tell e to sell the stocks,
it's just that i'm not the ONLY person who made the decisio.



jan. 28
excited.



i learned how to comment nice.
yes it's not super authentic.
yes it's intentionally kind.
yes it's important.


today's story.
if you are NT, you know this already.
if you are NT,







they think they're close.
close for them is far for me.



jan. 25







yes people are allowed to live their life how they want.
however.
so am i.

and.
if you wanna be yourself...
be careful LOL.

Fuck You Apple.





jan. 24






if you block facebook friends list that's weird.

friday
jan. 23

stocks

ha ha

imagine if your friend from 45 years only messages you about investments?
is that a friend?
well.
it's a friend with no kids.


jan. 23






I HAVE no job
all bills are paid.
HA HA HA

wtf
lol




jan..22



wednesday
hot laptop
chatgpt
lottery ongoing lol
still sick.


jan. 21







it was sheila who said to me, 12 or 23 yrs ago
"you NEVER do anything you don't want to do?

makes me wondeer.




be careful.
if you are not positive,
no one wants to talk to you on the phone.


wish i could sing ugh.
no singing while sick.
oh well. one day.

dizzy.
ears ringing louder than music.
misery.

not allowed to state reality.
nope.



jan. 18




the reason we have to do everything
is that it stays in our brain until it's completed.
and
my brain needs to be clean.
always.



jan 16







lottery again
lol
bought 4 stocks today







lottery






1. having a conversation causes brain to overthink 

3. i have lots of emails 
4. she used to disagree with me but this time agreed - she said i was better -
i do not think what i said historically was wrong - she said city people are bad - thats wrong 
obviously people just prefer talking to happier people 
if someone is struggling , you’re supposed to be nicer 
i wonder why she was nicer 
was it cause she learned i clean the house every day ?
she was super surprised that i clean the house every day -
this is one of the facts that i always wonder,
are there any women who don't clean a house every day


then later she said a few times that she understands that i do a lot and was kind - 
she said she understands if i don’t have the energy to deal with everything 
i think she realized that i do a lot 
she said i should be proud of myself








The reason we don't give a fuck anymore
is because
they never gave a fuck


jan 12







i did but now i don't
lol.

washing dishes, buddhism
grateful to have hot water, American Christianity

i am not responsible for anything.
only the moment.

jan 11








can you imagine not having a job and paying 2.083 dollars of bills in one day?
hard to believe..........



jan 10





friday
freeday
janday
nineday
rainday
sickday
cleanday
hayday







jan. 9






you buy a big beautiful house
but not one sensorite one says it's beautiful
or asks anything
or wants to visit it
or cares.

imagine if that's your life?


jan 8
january 2026
good morning
i think it's wednesday
a bit of snow
marty liveestreaming
warm in nyc
feel a bit sick
nausea
ugh
whatever
what is the plan today...................
dishes?



they don't know how to speak.
you're supposed to say "Ok, thanks for letting me know"
but they never say that.
they never answer a thing.
either stupid,
or they hate me.



















epiphany.
the tree will stay, since it arrived late.

moron honks at me as i back up.
fixed my budget page yay.
i will sleep tonight.
but bought shit today lol


jan 6











welcome to the 30th year.
notice: date i post is below the text.


rest in peace, all of the horrible sad random tragedies...





jan 5.
monday.
1:59PM





term official:
sensorites








stewardess.
he thinks he will get sick from being cold.
so old shool.


so, the main problem in this continent is related to people like him.
and them.
people who are not introspective.


deadly tragedies.
such a sad holiday season.


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friday jan. 2






if you don't like my video, that's fine,
but if you are a nice person,
you should say something nice.

thursday
have i ever written on the first of the year?
not sure.

sore back, slipped on ice.
brain is in a certain place.
coffee is being processed.
ears ringing louder than life.

how many years will it take for him to understand my brain?
...
fifty thousand.

let me wake up.


-  -  -

other topic.



introspection.
lack of.







can i wake up.




guess not.



ha
ha
ha


welcome to the 30th year of the mEp.




2025 :



he gives me confidence.