OCTOBER 31
hello. fuck you seamonkey.
i pasted not bold not underlined.
fuck you.
STOP it!!!
ok.
well.
not heavy rain yet...
something busted upstairs
LOLLLLLLLLLL
shadenfreude
am i supposed to feel it???
who knows.
head or heart?
he said heart
it's friday
freeday.
rainday
halloweenday
mandyday
sick day
nick day
food day
Go Live day?
oct.29
no
she did not reply.
imagine if i knew someone in real life who has known me a long time
and commented nicely on all my videos?
Imagine?????
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E1ZR3ETBWT8
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oct. 28
(cheating here, typing on wed. oct. 29)
i still cannot believe that Mika is gone.....
i'm allowed to cheat about such a kind doula, mother, wife,
who had just bought an upper duplex near westmount
and apparently got FUc#ncer
and left us in 9 months....
https://rockthecradle.ca/doula-mika-rock/#:~:text=A%20former%20science%20teacher%2C%20a%20prenatal%20and,Shiatsu%20Therapist%2C%20Mika%20is%20an%20amazing%20part
oct.27
well.
nope.
oct. 24
freeday
hello fuck you
12:33
friday
freeday
i saved 6,000 dollars in 6 weeks.
yay.
last pay oct. 30
2 months...
in theory...
3 months...
plus what he owes me...
so ;aslkjdf;laksjdf;lkajsdf;lkjas;dlfkja;sldkfj;asldjkf;alskjdf;
oct. 22
Wednesday
october.
leaves.
october.
i'm supposed to contact them lol
fuck you
they never reach out to me lol
do i own the world
lol
no.
oct 17
i knew someone whose income in Montreal was originally 81 cents an hour.
that's about $1,620 a year.
he worked at night.
downtown Montreal.
Pouring cement.
I roll out of bed at 8:15 am.
log on.
stare at my screen.
90 bucks an hour.
the world is so different.
i'm supposed to be happy due to this aren't i.
oct. 16
remember when this was annual income?
loudest ringing ears in weeks.
hard to think. 8:11 am
last full payday.
drinking coffee.
popping the ears.
cold laptop
need to wake up
AD accounts need to be cross checked
should i mention martin laroque
one account was still active
berna is still building the list of transfer confirmations.
what i wanted to say was
there is this assumption that we're all the same
yes, it took me a long time to learn we're not.
(oct. 4)
maybe i was a always a feeler
on the spectrum
and it was my family that taught me to not show emotions
but ummm
no, i’m not a feeler
what the fuck am i
i learned how to respond to people online
i learned how to listen to people
they didn’t
oct. 15.
the issue working with ESFPs, is that
You never know what they will do,
what they didn't do
what they want you to do
what they don't want you to do.
see, the thing is, no matter who was coming to meet us,
i would have made sure we accommodated them.
no matter who.
if i was another person, she would have accomodated me.
but since it was me,
nope. . .
but i understand.
Karl said:
"People on the spectrum tend to have more empathy towards others
due to our own self-awareness.
What you've said is SO important when it comes to understanding
how to interact with Neurotypicals.
He covers this EXTENSIVELY in my book, it's SO important."
oct. 14
"all night long"
Sub-boomeritesensors
She talks to me but doesn’t like me
he never says a word to me in a group event
the football thing was awkward - him getting us tickets is awkward - he has no friends...
actually … don’t worry about the game wasting your day … and it being loud and stressful …
i’m not sure they all liked it either
the photos he posts are so cringe
just turn off your brain
not everyone does that
only sensors who have no life
i always hated group talks
and every single time i have dinner with sensors , my brain flies all night long
so annoying
that room makes me puke
it’s sad that we r related
horrible taste
they never cook with wine
but it’s me the problem
it’s me.
find the story up north and read it
don't mention the state of the house up north, none of them G.A F.
they did not say one word about the rabbit and the flies.
not
one
word.
so here’s the thing …
if you’re a boomer sensor suburbanite,
you are not busy …
if you’re not busy enough ,
that’s part of what makes you judgmental and right wingish
he called Valerie Plante a bitch. that's nice.
he’s allowed to say and do all kinds of shit. oh well. not me.
these past 2 days destroyed my sleep …
maybe that’s why a lot of people on the spectrum don’t socialize ...
i guess there could be different factors
when i mentioned that i had tinnitus they all said “what else is new “
,,, like they all have it.
i never used to be a feeler but now i really wonder if i am
oct. 13
i have a life.
no drama.
i have no drama.
oct. 12.
october 10
alot in my brain today
i slept all night
i ran outside
i wasn't cold!
i filmed the fog.
october 8
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i am too nice.