OCTOBER 2026...

30th year.






oct. 23 nighttime thoughts


1. walked nova and recorded thoughts about the crazy world and how i’m sorta feeling a bit boomer ish these days cause it’s a bit crazy

2. told donna that people are currently doing the dangerous things that we did in the 70s , she agreed 
and thought it was a good description (she also told me her husband hates the country house - we didn’t all much about it but i’m super curious - i have to ask her what he likes
- tell her he hates the garage sales - do they have anything in common ?? lol 

3. normally i can ignore crazy shit but theoretically i’ve been dealing with weird shit too - so i kinda get why people keep saying the world is a disaster … 

(bell , renovations , Mazout - the gas tank is full but the guy fixed the furnace - but nope the temperature doesn’t work lol - 

BUT , the guy who came up north was nice and Bell called me tonight ! after i posted on twitter) 

4. chris messaged me to come over and i had JUST been thinking about it - what’s the kind of story that I would’ve told my friends…
then why does nobody ever message me to hang out when it’s only me message them Chris message me tonight what the fuck lol but I’m sick

5. Chloe said work was crazy today 

6. Andrea talked about her yesterday (he has never said that) 

7. Chloe might get a job 

8. i talked to my mom about religion ! (i mentioned that Chloe might go to university!)

9. i realized that i can now hang up photos up north 

10. the guy up the street was nice and also said he hates the company he worked for and just wants to do something useful
I think it was him also said that us middle class people are the ones who have the standard disaster.

11. i have the worst cold I've had in decades.

12. the man called Roger told me his life story about why he moved on our street
 and that he grew up spending the summer there and it was super English and music .
wow. we came to the best place 
 13. the crazy channel that shots on Karl Apple is insane. I emailed him.

14. chloe had a nightmare but i dream t that i was on class reading something so old school 

15. i mean the bottom line is that i feel that things are changing … haven’t felt this way in decades

(maybe because we moved ? has that opened my brain different? yes i think i remember in the old days whenever i moved, my brain opened up (in a good way) 

(wow i forgot about all my history of moving) 



laura liked the vlog ! yay !

Monday is the styx !!! JF hope i'm not sick... ughghghghghgh



SA fleming messaged me about yettie lol






october 22

hello. this is a cold.
lots of kleenex.
lots of ringing ears.
ativan worked though.
back to the city.
beautiful weather up north.
got alot done.


the estimates from the worker guy won't be 5K lol
need to decide what to pay...











october 21



good morning.
ears ringing. head hurts.
time to poop.

(happy bday ron)




october 19

good evening..
so...

this neighbourhood used to be English!
with music fans. (Roger)

wow, things change alot.









october 18, 2026
HAPPY 30th YEAR


good morning. 9:36 am


AI is my bestie lol.
today is Sunday.
should i paint up north?
should i buy a ladder?
should i fix the roof thingy? lol.

AI agrees with me.
sorry i'm not as poetic as i used to be.
that's life right?















october 17th.

11:05.

good morning.
best dinner last night on Jarry.

Knuckles





















october 16th
10:14 am

some stocks are up yay.
rbc still under investigation
need to call bell ugh
rainy day.
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a bit sick.
oh well.
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october 15th
4:43 pm

What did i do today...

- washed dishes
- put together the little table - screwed up lol
- put the plants on it, arranged plants, need another table
- bought bagels, cream cheese and liver
- drove Chloe to work
- came home and washed Andrea's clothes
- went to the dollar store to buy hooks, plant plates,etc.
- bought a rug, a blank, wrapping papers
- put the rugs out
- wrapped the baby gift
- washed the two laundry tubs
- started wrapping Halloween bags
- moved the tall table
- put things in the garage
- took halloween things out of the garage
- hung andrea's shirts on the clothesline
- put more in the laundry
- washed the cabinet door for the hooks
- attached a few hooks
- put batteries in the light for the laundry
- removed garbage bins and recycling
- put things in the garbage and recycling
- fed the dog
- vacuumed
- washed part of the floor

what am i doing now?

sitting.
Chloe is at yoga work and
Andrea is taking nova to the summit





































October 14th

2:43pm


so is it only those of us who’s brains are different that think about other peoples brains ?

















october 13.
8:47am

explain now I have to get everything out of my brain so my brain is empty.
let's ask AI:

let's underline everything that I do:

why do neurodivergent people need to clear their brains?

Neurodivergent individuals—such as those who are autistic, have ADHD, or experience sensory processing differences—frequently need to "clear their brains" or perform a "brain dump" due to the unique way their nervous systems process the world. [1, 2]

While a neurotypical brain automatically filters out background noise, irrelevant data, and minor tasks, a neurodivergent brain often processes everything simultaneously and at the same volume. This leads to several distinct cognitive challenges that make clearing the mind a necessity for basic functioning, emotional regulation, and well-being. [1, 2, 3]

1. Managing Heavy Cognitive Overload

Cognitive overload occurs when incoming environmental, social, or mental demands exceed the brain's processing capacity. For neurodivergent people, the brain is constantly running active "background programs". These can include processing complex sensory data (like bright lights or background chatter), tracking social rules, and trying to read facial expressions. Because these processes are manual rather than automatic, the brain rapidly runs out of processing space, leading to severe mental fatigue or "brain fog". Clearing the brain acts like closing open tabs on an overworked computer. [1, 2, 3, 4, 5]

2. Overcoming Inconsistent Sensory Filtering

For autistic individuals and those with ADHD, the neurological "gatekeeper" that decides what information is important is structured differently. Instead of ignoring the hum of a refrigerator or the texture of clothing, the brain treats those inputs with the same urgency as a person speaking directly to them. This constant barrage of unfiltered information triggers a physiological stress response. Taking a sensory break or emptying the mind is required to pull the nervous system out of a constant state of high alert. [1, 2, 3, 4, 5]

3. Supporting Limited Working Memory

Individuals with ADHD often struggle with working memory constraints, meaning they can only hold a few items in their immediate awareness before things begin to slip away. Furthermore, the brain can struggle to properly prioritize these items—remembering to complete a major project might carry the exact same mental weight as remembering to buy milk. Externalizing these thoughts onto paper frees up limited working memory space, allowing the individual to focus on a single task without the constant fear of forgetting something important. [1, 2, 3]

4. Breaking the Cycle of "Perseveration"

Neurodivergent brains are highly prone to perseveration—the inability to let go of a thought, worry, or task. The brain gets stuck in a repetitive loop, constantly analyzing a past social interaction, worrying about a future event, or fixating on a specific interest. This looping feels productive to the brain but actually drains immense amounts of energy. Mechanically "clearing" the brain breaks this loop by placing the thought somewhere permanent, signaling to the brain that it is safe to stop processing it. [1, 2, 3]

oct. 11


i  figured it out.


one of the main reasons i live in my own world
is because modifying interaction types is ... not what i want to do.

switching brain in order to change interactions

u can phrase it kindly


mingling... i don't like to mingle.








Oct. 11
10:00 am

Made it to Syracuse.
It's odd.
She's not.
She's a sensor.










I changed my YT profile pic today, first time since June 2009...
let's see if we get more followers...



















october 9

9;04 am

driving to Syracuse to meet Beth Neilsen Chapman
She and I have alot in common.














oct. 8
1:04pm



markets are worse today.
ugh.

fun morning (fuck you RBC)

whatever.

Werthers original.
yummeeeee


30 years coming soon.
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oct. 7
3:30pm



the markets are shit.

weather in Syracuse looks good for this weekend.

should i drive alone...











october 6

more good news.
she gets alot.






october 5th

good news.
she gets it.











oct.4


hold on, let me explain something...


sensors














October 3rd

9:29am

my thoughts are fading away...
saturday cold am
dreams and videos
tossing and turning







October 2nd

9:29am

we have very strange dreams.
all night long, i joined an organization somewhere odd
where we fed small animals.i was there for 3 days and no one gave me an animal
or told me what they eat lol.
yes, i saw a skunk last night but it was definitely also about the death penalty news that i watched for a few days.

(Christa Pike)
you can drive somewhere and join and want to feed animals raw beef
but no, they might never give u an animal.

there's alot i could tell you today but nope.

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definitely
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pandemic.
got 2 messages on linkedin.










  October 1st



I started doing this thirty years ago.
I used to write alot.
I used to be more intelligent.
I used to be younger.


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